Life is Hard..confession~~

Assalamualaikum, konichiwa, bonsoir, to all..its been a long time heh?..and this blog looked a bit wrecked i thing..well, im HOME!!!..yaay..miss my mum, my dad, my room, my dad, my everything~~..dapat la release tension ble da smpai rumah..xbanyak bnde nk fikir..so why life is HARD??..capital letter i eja hard tu..sbb life mmg susah pn..org kaya pn ade life yg susah jugak ok..ade masa kita senang..ade masa kita susah..that is the cycle of life peeps..

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ok..ni xde kne mngena dgn topik ni tp its make my life seakan-akan susah..well,, ble kte berkawan especially guys and girls..ade batas la of course..kawan baik mcm mne pn sooner or late akn timbul satu perasaan yg boleh dikatakan confusing..that is what happen to me now..mesti semua orang ckp mcm SAY WHAT??!..yeap..im totally in a friendzone~~

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for the first, i put in my mind that antara aku dgn hamba Allah tu just a friend and u have a large gap between u and him..adela org bagitau hati2 mahira,,nnt awk tersuka kt dy nnt..well my word at that time is a big NO..after 1 year and a half..well perasaan tu timbul sikit2..but still aku sembunyikan atas nama persahabatan..

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FRIENDSHIP..it will always still forever as a friendship..tp smpi ble cik mahira salleh ni nak simpan perasaan dy...kadang2 ble dok mkn dgn hamba Allah ni, outing same2..i want to yell it out from my heart that..HEY DUDE, IM IN LOVE WITH U..but no..atas nama kawan, aku hold dlu..sbb takut dy jauh dari aku..i don't know if he start to notice or what but..slowly dy macam jauh dari aku..mungkin perasaan aku tp xpela..aku buat xtau je..

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kenapa aku berani luahkan kt blog aku yg berkarat ni?..sebab dy xakan bukak blog ni..aku berani mengatakan itu sebab its the truth..*evil grin*..aku suka kt beliau is because aku nampak bley ubah aku yang sedia terjal ni..keras kepala bagai..i dont know..sebelum ni xde pape pn..kawan mcm biasa je..tp ntahla..i guess i have smashed down the wall of our friendship..im sorry...xsengaja sbb bc i cant lie to myself anymore..

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hehehe..tgkla lau cik mahira salleh ni melalut..mesti xhengat dunia..sorry2..maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki...well..thats all from me..and sape2 yg tbaca whether my friend or not..lets keep it secret..n____n

Assalamualaikum, sayonara, au revoir, good day~~

Everything has changed~

 

Assalamualaikum, hello, bonjour, hola, konichiwa..well its EID yeaay!!!..selamat hari raya to all Muslims all over the world..so since now is Eid, i want to apologize for those whom i know doesn't matter from Malaysia or from other countries..

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when it comes to hari raya,.there a lot popped inside your mind like what to wear on hari raya?, what meal i should prepare on the morning of 1st raya?, what should i do with all of this duit raya?..everything has be in mind on the 1st ramadhan...

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well, i want to gives a lil story about my childhood's eid celebration and preparation..

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flashback begins...

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well its start on a week before syawal..my family and i will go to the town to buy new things like new shoes, new clothes, and of course new purse..people might think..new purse? every syawal?..that will come later,,after done with the shopping all of my sisters will try our new clothes and shoes and stand in front of the mirror to look what was we look like in new clothes *my siblings were all girls*..and try to walk around with new shoes..well who doesn't like new shoes right??

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2 or 3 days before syawal, we will went back to my grandparent's house to celebrate with all of my aunts and uncle and cousins and of course my grandparents..the night of raya, we will went outside the house and play firecracker or sprinkles..in the morning we will wake very early and perform raya's pray..when we reached home from the mosque, we will sit in a circle and ask for forgiveness..which start with eldest which is Pak Long..done with all that, my cousins and i will walk all over the village and visits houses..if we lucky enough, we will get ang pau from them.. i have a fun raya in my childhood

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well, its so differents nowadays..people were to busy to come and visits their friend or relative on hari raya..most worst is, they did come and visit but guess what??...all of em were busy with their phones, tablet, or whatever gadget they have,,its like they don't know how to socialize in a "real life"...kids nowadays were to focused on tv program and games until they don't comes out on hari raya..they actually don't know the meaning of raya anymore..well its true what people said is sambutan hari raya mengikut aliran masa..

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iklan sekejap~~

something happen i asked my bestie about something on what i suppose to do..should i cheat on my ex, in order for him to move on with his life as do with mine..? what i can say is i have to do it.. i don't want him to stuck in the past and don't see the future that await for him..thats all i can say~~

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well. again i want to wish all of u SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN..may u have a blast eid..=) 

thats all peeps,,Assalamualaikum, Au revoir, Adios, Sayonara arigato gozaimas~~