Peek of a Super Awesome Life

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

HELLO...

BONJOUR...

ANYEONG HASEYO...

well, why so suddenly i wanna write this entry... talking about life and stuff... probably i just see what life is all about...

did you ever been in a situation when people are dissed you, make fun of you, or probably make your life miserable... one thing i wanted to say that they are a piece of shit...

i rarely used harsh word for my blog...yep quite harsh...but for 23 years old and 5 month i lived... people doing quite harsh thing to me...and yes i fell down n woke up and its keep going in the same cycle..

probably what i had been trying is all i want is ATTENTION, LOVE, AFFECTION...i never ever this 'bad boys' with me...and for trying to earn this.. i always end up with a wrong person...

life is hard...there is nothing in this world is easy as ABC..maybe i watched a bit too late..but Easy A's movie is really open up my eyes and my heart. While Olive is trying to fit in by doing lies for a sake of attention...so do i...except for the lie part

i just want to fit in to look at this attention and stuff... and that's why i end up with a wrong person...

LONELY...

sometimes i think what is wrong with me...why im doing this...how i involved in this shit...well..probably i just want people to see me...to look the real me...

sometimes im so busy looking for what im looking for... my heart stab itself..and if i feel lonely..

i should love myself before people do..and its a process that need a great patience...my 23 and 5 month is just a beginning of a new level...its not i just realize it...it just i didnt see it through

i fall now...people will laugh and make bad things to me... i wont fall now... i want to stand straight 

LOVE,

time will come for me to love...i just need to wait and love myself..before i love someone else... im a strong independent woman and no one can take it for me...

all i can say is.....

BE STRONG, IRA....KEEP BEING STRONG