MAD AS FUCK!!!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM, HOLA, BONJOUR, ANYEONG HASEYO

HELLO...

After all up and down things that happen in my whole life, finally i come back and writing this entry.. it is night here in Malaysia and i'm wide awake and listen to Paramore while typing this post...

today's post was full with anger and unsatisfied feeling... anger to who?? to any person who thinks that they are way more than other.. really? i'm all in green suit because i just can't stand that type of people and still questioning to myself why this kind of people ever exist in this very world...

in order to express my anger, i will right this in Bahasa.. Yep Bahasa Malaysia and a lil English you guys.. so it will be Manglish~~

korang mesti pelik kan kenapa la aku boleh sanggup aand terfikir kenapa aku nak kena buat entri pasal puak ni kan? bukan dapat pape pun kan....

because i seriously don't like you... *whisper in your ears*

and aku tak nak orang lain merasa apa yang aku rase and seriously how to handle this kind of person..

i know it will be so not professional since i'm using media to express my feeling.. i mean it is super wrong.. tapi tahap kemarahan, kekecewaan da reach the limit... 

aku takde la banyak sgt pengalaman bekerja.. stahun kerja as teacher kt private company.. then 3 months bekerja kat mall as customer service kt satu mall yang gah lagi gilang gemilang ulung besarnye kt tempat aku ni haaa..

my 1 year working as teacher was great sebab dapat bos yg giler caring, amik tau ape masalah antara teacher and student and any ways to help budak-budak ni.. dalam erti kata lain memang no problem at all.. even didn't get paid banyak tp seriously seronok sebab x stress..

dijadikan cerita aku quit keje as teacher and keje kt mall.. i thought... well i thought keje sini best gile.. yela keje mall kan, kau nak makan kfc ke, pizza ke tak payah nak angkat phone, start enjin kereta segala bagai.. sejuk then tandas bersih...memang heaven la citer dia..

it was all superfine.. the environment, the task itself was not that hard.. tapi 1 je yang slack.. staff.. the other staff.. dalam kaunter tu ade 3 orang take charge and work as customer service.. well include me la kan.. so yg lagi 2 orang, a guy and a chick.. aku memang takde masalah pape dengan chick tu sebab dia la yang ajar aku macam-macam mase aku start keje kt situ.. 

but.. i have problems with the other staff.. the other 'guy' staff

well, at first he was super nice and everything..senior katanya... silapnya mamat ni aku punye radar da dapat detect yang he will be a problem in your career life... and he was..

aku memang tak boleh tahan dengan perangai dia yang macam ala2 perempuan.. ala-ala perempuan yang macam mana?? he talked bad things about u, behind u and he kinda thinks people trusted him but actually they are not.. untuk semua masalah dia, salah yang dia buat, he put the blame on others and marah-marah orang tak tentu pasal macam mak cik-mak cik yang bengang pasal gosip yang entah pape... 

and the worst part is he is the hottest reporter kat mall tu... kaki report senah oi.. suka sangat mreport kat HR.. and2 bila tak puas hati dia tak pernah duduk berbincang ape salah ape yang betol sebab setiap kali time meeting dia boleh buat presentation pasal how to treat customer which is bagus tapi kalau benda-benda yang penting kalau di bincang kan ade bagus nye laaa... 

and aku paling benci bila dia pikir dia boleh beli trust orang dengan belikan barang or food kat higher staff.. i mean isn't that people called bribery?

and then merendah-rendahkan orang kerja xgah macam kau.. bro, orang-orang yang kau cakap tu entah ade degree ke master ke.. cuma rezeki dia je lain dari kawan-kawan dia.. kau terus je cakap macam-macam orang mcm tu... kau sendiri mintak keje kat situ pakai spm yg entah berapa A.. nak bangga sangat... Allah baru bagi nikmat sikit kau da cakap macam-macam.. kau bangga dapat kawan dengan doktor, businessman, anak datuk tan sri mane-mane ntah.. tapi tu diorang.. bangga ke nak citer pasal engkau??

aku bukan nak bukak aib sape-sape tapi ingat laa.. jangan sibuk sangat nk anaiya orang sebab kalau kau sibuk sangat cari salah orang, orang cari salah kau jugak.. bagusla kau nak betulkan orang.. betul sangat and aku setuju.. tapi dalam masa yang sama muhasabah diri.. 

kau pernah kena macam-macam ke bro?? orang amik kau keje sebab kau ade pengalaman je bro.. cuba kalau kau amik kau keje pakai SPM kau.. orang pikir 2 3 kali.. aku pun tahap diploma je orang da tak nak amik keje ape lagi kau yang tahap SPM.. rezeki tu Allah yg bagi kau siapa nak hina-hina orang yang kerja macam tuu.. kadang-kadang orang macam tu jauh lebih bersyukur dari kau... kau ape tau?? tau nya nak membezakan orang keje tu keje ni...

aku fitnah kau?? dude,, recheck yourself.. aku dah pernah kena fitnah beromen kat tempat kerja (my previous intern days),, orang cop aku itu ini.. dengan pernah dapat manager sendri yang mengata pasal aku depan-depan... tapi aku diam je sampai aku protess...

tuhan tu maha adil, bro .. sekali kau buat orang sepuluh kali ganda Allah bagi kesusahan kat kau... mat salleh cakap ANGER HAS ITS CONSEQUENCES.. and aku berani amik consequences tu sebab aku nak cakap ENOUGH... bila orang da bagi hint, bagi petanda... sendiri mau paham laa

lastly, aku nak mintak maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki sebab aku sendiri buat salah.. tujuan aku buat entry ni sebab enough is enough.. stop treating people that way... orang takkan berkata kalau bukan kita yang mulakan.. macam retis la.. kalau tak kena tangkap basah, bukak tudung, rampas laki orang.. orang takkan cakap pape... 

again... i'm deeply sorry 

AU REVIOR, SAYONARA, ASSALAMUALAIKUM

Big Woman

Pheww.. just got time to write my new entry for my blog and.....  since Google suggest me to write in Malay, so today's blog will be in both Malay and English.... Take that, Google!!

so, today's topic will be Big Woman.. apa itu Big Woman? well, apparently big woman means woman who are big in size.. in another term is Plus size woman.

some people have put several stereotype on Big Woman based on their impression, judgement, and lastly observation. it is really common for people to leave their first impression by judging their looks. everyone do that, including me... (me are not exception)

so here are several lists of stereotype on big woman.. no offense but this from my experience and reading.

1) BIG WOMEN ARE BIG EATER

so, kebanyakan perempuan yang berbadan besar mesti la..bukan semua lah tapi segelintir orang akan menganggap orang berbadan besar ni orang yang kuat makan.. i experienced myself when people give assumption that i am big eater (FYI, i am plus size girl bebeh).. i went to Pizza Hut an ordered myself a Mushroom Soup with garlic bread for my dinner. and the  waiter asked me, "is that enough for you?".. excuse me, i do like to eat but in a small portion. when they see woman or man who are big in size, they quickly put an impression that woman or man that are big are a big eater. well, some of them are not..

2) BIG WOMEN ARE NOT SUITABLE TO BE MAGAZINE's COVER GIRL



Mostly what we see on cover of a beauty magazines are supermodel and celebrity with smokin' hot body. Well, now that is wrong. that is were the phrase ' What Monkey See, is What Monkey Do' (its my phrase tho).. when big people see this kind of advertisement, they will probably feel small and lack of confidence about themselves, looking beautiful and skinny and also be able attract their opposite sex. if they going to do a really good and healthy diet, that is acceptable. how about who are not be able to diet in a good and healthy way? it might be dangerous.. isn't it? Tess Holliday is a large supermodel that made it in modelling world. don't believe me? google her...

3 ) BIG WOMEN ARE HARDLY TO GET THEIR SOULMATES

sesetengah orang bila nampak orang yg gemuk tak kahwin lagi, mesti dalam kepala dia fikir. "oh, orang ni gemuk sangat, mesti takde yang nak kat dia". ekkkkkk.. kenapa ada orang yang mampu berfikir macam tu. i mean if she/he doesn't get married just because she/he is fat?.wrong thinking buddy.. orang macam ni cuma belum jumpa jodoh je.. and another thing is when other people starts to think this kind of thinking, he/she were scared that no one like her/him just because of they are not like anyone else.. makes them feel less.

the point is doesn't matter what size you are, you are beautiful in your own way. it doesn't matter whether you are skinny or not, you are special person. without you, the world are not complete. so, i don't want to be offensive to any people. but the truth is there are still people who still stereotyping people just by their looks and that is bad. people who read my post will probably said, i just write this because i was the victim. but actually im not. im happy with what i have, what i look like and what i am.

i guess thats all for now, because my job are waiting... so be yourself, truth to yourself and never feel down if people talk about yourself because you are who you are.

BYE, ADIOS, SAYONARA, AU REVIOR, ASSALAMUALAIKUM

What a phewww day

ASSALAMUALAIKUM, KONICHIWA, ANYEONG HASEYO, NI HAO, BONJOUR, HOLA

HELLO,

thank god its my off day.. i really don't have time to write for the new entry.. since today is my day off, i just wanna lay on my bed, chilling, reading books or magazines and the most heaven of them all is.. SLEEP or NAP.. i just wanna sleep all day without no worries..

so, its tiring week since i got my new job. i already stopped teaching and now working as cutomer service coordinator.. so if u have any problem, i will try to help you..

well, I've got nothing much to share with..my reviews on books or movies or music perhaps??

LINDSEY STIRLING

for those who don't know who Lindsey Stirling is.. she is my favorite favorite most favorite violinist

she is a dancer, performer, youtuber, composer and so many more than you can imagine this chick will do.

her first music that i discover was 'Moon Trance'. for me it is not an ordinary violin play. i still love classical play but this lady bring violin play into a whole new level. i mean who would like to play violin and dance in the same time? well Lindsey Stirling can..

she also had made a collabration with John Legend for the song 'All of me'.. and Pentatonix, the famous all known a Capella group.. my favourite was the cover for song 'Radioactive'

i rarely listen to instrumental song but her music really awakes me.. she used to audition for American got Talent and succeed to quarter final but she didn't made it.. and now every part of the world listen to her play and even travel around the world for those who love her plays..

fail once doesn't mean you will fail forever.. that is what i learned from Lindsey Stirling.. just do what you love and who knows one day you will succeed and everyone will look up to you..and she also inspire me to learn play violin too but since i'm busy i don't have time

for me to make an art and to please people is not easy.. as long as you try and never give up, u will find a way to it.. so for those who loves instrumental song.. i recommend Lindsey Stirling..

that's all i wanna share.. and hope everyone have a great days, weeks, years.. and since it is February.. i wanna wish Happy Valentine Day for those who celebrate it.. i don't because i'm single so i just wish it to all of you

 SAYONARA, ADIOS, AU REVIOR, ASSALAMUALAIKUM,

BYE


P/S:: i'll share my favorite Lindsey's Stirling video for you guys to enjoy